ME

昨晚正起身準備下樓洗澡
Skype撥號聲一直響
想說是誰啊～～我明明用隱藏
一看，居然是M，有把我嚇到
我回他：等等再聊～～先去洗澡


一回來，我問他：How are you these days?
M：I am fine... and you?  How's going?
I：I am fine too
M講的很酸：I think it's because I am out of your life
I：Why you said that so mean?  You wrote me the mail and didn't want me to contact you.... I just did the things what you wanted
M：I didn't mean that....
I：I think we can be friends... if you want it.  And I hope you can be my friend... not complicated relationship
M：Do you get the one you want to touch and hug?
I：Not yet.... did you?
M：I am not.... coz I am not looking for...  I don't love for fun
I：Me too... don't think I was playing you...
M：I never said that.... did you get yours?
I：Not yet  (是要問幾遍？Not yet還看不懂嗎？)
M：Taiwan is fuul of young men who can hug very well... I think...
I：It depends.... it depends on me
M：Keep searching it... don't give up... you will find one as you want
I：So do you...
M：You will find for sure,make advertisement in newspaper
I：Am I too eager to want it?
M：You are looking so  (真的覺得他講話很酸)


M：Just tell me what type of men you want 
I：A man understands me... can spend time together... can make me laugh..... so we are friends now?
M：I can be whatever you want, but i cannot give whatever you want
I：You love working more than your life, but i love my life more than my working
M：I love working because I don't want to get involved in hell of spare of time  (不是很懂意思，只知大概), I don't do anything unless I am 100%satisfy with it
I：I really hope to see you are happy... you find some one to accompany... i really hope to see that.  If you make it, please let me know immediately, i will feel happy for you.
M：I did not plan to love before,but later I felt ineed it,but unfortunately I realised that sooooooo late
I：The juice still overdued some day when you kept insisting not drinking it.  I am that juice.... you are the man keeping insisting believing the juice wouldn't overdue.
M：You know professional people who make wine used to keep it for years, because the more they keep the more they enjoy the taste of it.  The time I decided to go to open my bottle I found it disapearing.  That is you
I：I am not the wine.... I am just the normal juice which you can find everywhere
M：How bad, you hurie up everything
I：Although I wanna be the wine, I don't have the quality to be.  Till the end, I am just the juice not the wine you love and you want.
M：It's an advice for you for rest of your life, DON'T EVALUATE YOUR LILF.  LET PEOPLE EVALUATE YOU AND YOU DEAL AND DISCUSS WITH THEM ACCRDINGLY.
（講到這整個亢奮起來，死小孩個性出現了，就很想作對）
I：Sometimes people can't see real me... only I know myself that well.... If I can't know what I can be, I will live so hard to be some one who wants me to be
M：If I tell you that is moon and you tell me that's sun, in this case everyone is talking about something different.  So we will never reah to a positive result unless we both agreed either it is sun or moon
I：You can see the moon in day time... actually sun is also exist at night.... it just depends on YOU WANT TO SEE THE MOON OR THE SUN.
M：You can not convince me you are a normal person, because what I am seeing is totally different and I better not to chang it
I：You have too.... coz I am just normal
M：That fact is that beauiness is seen by feeling not by eyes.  What your feeling can reflect to your eyes that is what you are really seeing. But if days goes as now maybe oneday I will change my view to point owards you if you want so, maybe I am still in kg class in life school
I： I am not look down myself.... even I can be... sometimes it needs some one to provide me a chance
M：Someone will give you chance when he feel you deseve it, and will ;ive chance when he feel you can achieve at least 75% of what he wants.  No one will give chance for hopeless case.t  Tat is only happened whn you give yourself chance to make it greater.  Believe in yourself that you are great and do accordingly.  This is the main gate for any successull , Nicole


我可以明瞭他想表達的
只是他前面講話很酸讓我很想唱反調
讓我有股莫名的快感
現在這種話題對我已經免疫了
越是這樣～～怕到頭來不過是空話一番
不想去知道那麼多不想只是原地踏步
只是想腳踏實地工作
但一開始我是真的為了反駁而反駁
可到後面我卻為了反駁而沉默