ME

I always can't fight the smile from people.  Seeing they smiling makes myself feel happy as they do.  

These days I am totally in a bad mood because of looking my next job.  So frustrated... so uphappy
actually.  I know I am facing the struggle between choosing happy and goal reaching for the long 
time.  I wanna be happy in my career, but the salary probably can't reach the standard as I had before.
It's why Dad doesn't agree me to work in cram school.  He hopes I find a better job.... that means 
better salary.  How much you get is equal to how much you pay for.  It's a very fair thing in the world.
The problem is that I don't wanna be... but the truth is that I have to be.  Therefore, I am adjusting to 
the reality.

Last night on my way home, I met the bus driver whom I knew in high school.  I rode my scooter.... 
turned to see him and waved my hand to him.  He talked to his passenger and saw me.  He probably 
started to seek his moment to recall who I am.  Thank god.... he remembered although I wore the mask
and helmet.  I just smiled and kept waving to him.  He responsed me the same.  When the light turned
to red, I rode away.  I think it is enough for both of us.  He felt the same as I felt.  However, he wouldn't
know how much important it is to me.  I don't need much.... a simple smile is enough to me.  That's 
all.

It seems that the lack of smile in my lives makes me uphappy.  You must smile for reasons or you 
will become a fool.  And then.... where is my smile?