ME

There is one song which was shown in the movie names "Sister Act 2".  It's too old 
and I can't find its lyrics.  However, I remember it is "If you wanna be somebody... If
you wanna go somewhere, you've better wake up and pay attention."  The song is 
"Pay Attention".  I have no idea why this song was keeping appearing in my mind. 
Just like it, if you wanna be somebody, you really got wake up and pay attention.

Since graduating from school, I had great ambition to reach.  That's right!!!  I wanna
be somebody, I wanna go somewhere.  I wanna proof how could I be.  Somehow, 
I found it is not practical actually and made me uphappy.  I pushed myself too hard 
and I did not have fun in my life.  I just worked... worked.... worked.... for the salary
I should deserve more or better.  Untill one day, my friend asked me what was that
for.  I couldn't give him a certain answer coz I had no damn idea too.  He said we 
are only 25 and it is the best time to enjoy the life.  Moreover, we work for better lives
instead of worse one.  I remembered that time I still could not make my mind to 
quit.  

Being somebody means you have to sacrifice your time, your lives, and all things 
that may cut you off in a sudden for working.  I think over again and again... asking
myself whether I could do it or not.  I am not a glutton for work in fact.  I am that kind
of people who divides time for relaxing, working, fun, sleeping as well.  Although 
Mohab always said I can imagine how you will be successful in your job.  You'll be
not at home so often for you are always out of town for working.  I guess he is wrong 
about his good sense again.   I really can't!!!

These days I am looking for a new job and having the holidays for it.  I just stayed at
home and live my life very peaceful.  Sometimes I helped Dad and discover new food
to eat.  Really very good.... From Dad, I saw how working hard a farmer is.  When he 
watered the plants, it was really amazing.  I just didn't find it before.  I made fun with
him when I helped him although I knew he worried my career.  I had fun and enjoy 
every moment I had.  That was what present meant.  Why I couldn't have it from my
job before?  I realized I don't wanna be somebody.... I wanna be happy.  Perhaps, I 
am just always the little screw.  There is nothing wrong with it.  At least I am happy 
and more healthier.  I want this life.... maybe it's very useless for some ones, but I 
love it.  Being somebody.... let some one who has the ability to take that.....